Signing Off...For Now..

Internet is being shut down at home for about a month as I get some things sorted out with work..surgery..and packing up to move.

I will return later in January.

You can catch me on yahoo when im at work.
goodeboy23

Ta ta for now

A First

Well..this will be a first for me in my life. Spending Christmas alone.

But I have Nemo :) I plan to bake cookies for him tonight...light a fire...and just chill.

Merry Christmas everyone.
In my thoughts.

Oh Brother.

Well I haven't been feeling too good lately. So that has consumed most of my time. I swear my body hates me.

N E Way.

Chris came down to celebrate his bday. Thursday night was SO much fun. Too many shots ...but fun!! Clary came with us too. This is us the next morning:


I didn't get to hang out with them the rest of the weekend...thanks again to being sick.

This is soon to be Nemo's playmate. Miss Bianca!! She's a rat.




I am excited to get to move in with Chris. He is one of my closest friends...and couldn't come at a better time in my life right now.

Hopefully we will have our place picked out anyday now. Ill post pics!

A Thought to Ponder....

My friend Steve wrote the following journal entry. I think if you are gay out there and wonder about religion...or perhaps you are straight and don't understand how "we" really fell...this will help.

Very well written.

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Its been a little over two years since I finally accepted that I was gay. I had known for quite awhile prior to my senior year in high school, but I never acted on it or embraced it until then. I had always felt that ‘there was no way that I’d turn out that way,’ or that since there was only a 1/10 chance (supposedly) for someone to be gay. I’ve always considered myself lucky, and in a way I am. I had a 90 hance to be a ‘normal’ heterosexual, but fate (and genetics) had another say in that matter.




Once I finally accepted that I was gay, my life changed. I realized that I may have some difficulty living my life fully, I realized that I would face discrimination, ignorance, and would be treated differently as an American in our country’s legal system. Change is on its way, but these reforms are long overdue. However, I understood the risks and benefits, and opted to go forward and become who I was meant to be. Being true to oneself is its own reward.




As I entered this new stage in my life I came to realize what it is like to be victimized, vilified, and misrepresented by our leaders and by those in the media. I find the use of religion as a weapon to be a travesty, there is no reason for these condemnations. The current Pope even gave justification for attacks on homosexuals due to how horrible and depraved we are. Last time I checked it was not the gays who were molesting young boys. Growing up I went to Catholic elementary schools, for the education as opposed to the religious aspect - public schools are not as effective in preparing students for high school as they should be. I began to question the idea of heaven and hell, the need to constantly consider oneself to be a sinner, as well as to fear our creator. I also questioned the sincerity of the established Churches, seeing how they grew both in size and opulence while the faithful did without (take the mega-churches used by televangelists for example). I thought poverty was godly, and while churches in general do donate to the needy and aid the community, a great deal of money is spent in equipping the ministers in Rolex watches and expensive suits. Is not the Church supposed to unite the community in love and fellowship? Why then is it being used to divide homes and condemn those who they perceive to be different?

It seems that as man is not perfect, neither is its institution to represent the divine. I believe the Bible is a collection of stories passed down by people to try and justify their place in the world, as well as provide lessons for future generations. On a side note, Christianity evolved from Judaism, Zoroastrianism, and Mithraism. If you don’t believe me, study the histories. I am not wracked by guilt over this realization, and I know that we each are loved by our god (or gods, whatever one prefers). I know in my heart that I am not perverted or evil, and I have no fear of death. If that weren’t so then there are several times when I could have died, but I haven’t (try drowning in Hanauma Bay). It seems that I have a purpose.




I guess that what I am trying to say is that there is nothing wrong with being gay, it is natural (yes there are gay animals -- there are two female swans in NY city that have paired up, among others). In our hearts we know that we are just as good as anyone else, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. We have nothing to be ashamed of or sorry for. Be who you were meant to be.

Thanksgiving

Well...I made it back in one piece.

Man...what a long week it was.

Here is the breakdown.

Wednesday (day before thanksgiving)
I worked until about 3...got packed...headed out. Then work called me back in b/c of a problem with my story that was due to air at 6. So had to turn BACK around and head to work. Finally got on the road by 530...and fought heavy traffic until about the SC/NC border. The drive overnight wasn't too bad really. No weather probs. I got to mom's by 3am. Ate a BBQ chicken sandwhich and off to bed I went :)

Thanksgiving
The fam all started showing up near 1 or 2pm. My aunt Sandra came by. LOVE HER! She is 70 and loves to party. Definately the rebel in my family. Thank god she was around. So we just ate the typical meal...then just chilled with my bro and his family in the evening and then crashed.

Friday
Woke up near midday to begin our shopping day (me and mom). However, it was 8 degrees outside. So cold in fact my car wouldn't start. It is the coldest weather that car has ever seen...she is only 8 mos old! But eventually it started and we headed out to the malls. Overall wasn't too bad. Mom and I avoided some heated conversation as I think we both were too tired to discuss it. Drew came over in the evening to pick up his stuff. Nemo recogized him right off which I thought was sweet. It was good seeing him..he looked good. Wasn't too odd...yet a year ago we were celebrating this holiday time together. But we are still in each other's lives which is something to certainly be thankful for. Later that night though....I started to feel alittle sick..hence Saturday.

Saturday
Woke up with sore throat...sinus headache. I thought...uh oh. It's been awhile since I've had that. But I went to Dad's anyway. Got to see my cousins and and stuff. But the longer I was there, the sicker I became. But again, I tried to smile. That evening I was supposed to go out to the bar...and I told myself that I really need to do that. So i sucked it up and went out. Met Valerie out there. Was wild to see my "home" after so long. They remodeled it..looked really good. Got to see some familar faces. Val showed up and we watched the drag show which was REALLY good. They made some nice changes to it. The bar was open til 6...but Val left at 4. I stayed and danced by myself. I loved it. Just me...the lights...the music ...and all with my eyes closed. I really needed that "queer as folk" moment. I don't think I have danced that long in quite some time. I then left to go stay at my friend Michael/Keiths for the night.





I passed out in their spare room. Only to wake up feeling im going to die.

Sunday
Oh boy. This was a rough day. I thought my head was going to explode from the sinus pressure...that with a fever and wanting to throw up was just a horrible feeling. So i got in my car and went home. Took some meds and went to bed. And ...bed is where I stayed.

Monday
Doped up. But I got the chance to just watch tv shows I haven't seen in a while. I watched the news...price is right...then days of our lives..then passions..then dr. phil...then ellen...then news...then prime time shows...then leno/letterman...then conan...then caron daily (wow he has lost weight) then reruns of leno/conan. LOL. And didn't move from the bed. However, it was during the evening that I had a huge scare. Mom came in out of breath and told me to watch the dogs. I was like ??? She said that my brother had just been in a bad car accident was taken to the hospital. He apparently swurved to miss a car that pulled out in front of him and he flipped his truck over several times. He came to rest upside down and they had to cut him out of his truck and then rush him to the hospital. Thankfully, he is okay now. No major injuries...just shaken up of course. This follows just months eariler when his wife had a horrible accident..and them having their house broken into. Sigh. Its the GOODE curse I am telling ya.

Tuesday
Doped up. Same shows...nothing new

Wednesday
Doped up, but decided to head to Bowling Green anyway. I figured getting out would help. So I drove down to see my bud Josh and meet his new bf Ryan.


We went to WBKO to see my old crew. Oh how I miss them so. We hung out at puertos (mexican) and laughed about old times and talked about the biz and stuff. It was fun. Gene Birk and I had some good talks. I got to see my old roomie Addie too! Then I crashed at Josh's.

Thursday
Woke up...hit the road near 1pm....and dealt with a windy and cold drive back. Got home near 10pm.

Friday
So here I am now. Still kinda sick. But I have a huge list of shit I have to do. Sigh. But I do have some excitment. My best gay Chris and I are going to be roomies!! He is going to move down here from Greenville so we plan to get a place together in the next few weeks. So once again...I AM MOVING. Shew. I need to hire movers this time :)

As far as mom and I. Well, I think it will be an issue of us avoiding the drama for now. It will come back up once I do have someone signficant in my life I do want to share with my family. So I will cross that road...if and when it happens.

For now...I need more meds.
:)